My Testimony!

Posted On: 05/13/2012 Current Mood: accomplished

The Lord's Mercy

My story begins, went I was young, my mother tried raising me to be Christian but it didn't really catch on. Many points in my life did I see both God and Satan working in the background of my life. I can say I seen The enemy make his move first. In my early life I was picked on and hated and didn't know why. Sometime for racial reasons, sometime just hatred. Even though I had a few friends soon I would lose contact and then I was alone.

But during this time I would hear a story about a group of people called the Hebrews lead by Moses to the promise land this story gripped my heart I loved it. But didn't understand the whole meaning. But I would in time.

Soon I found myself in the age group (10) where I started like girls. But they didn't like me. At the age of 12 I feel into depression (I can say it was a spiritual depression not a physical imbalance.) And one day I tried to take my life, but I older sister stopped me, and my mother talked with me. She had me sign a treaty with her that I would not kill myself (I kept my end of the deal, even though I talked about it.) So I found myself going to counseling which didn't help for me. The older I got my liking for the opposite gender grew, but went the wrong way. Soon at the age of 14 I give into pornography, since I found no one who liked me ( I was young and stupid -_-)

But at the same time I found myself liking a story called “The Lord of the Rings.” A story talking about good vs evil, intrigued me. My small love for history was birthed at this point and with it made me curious of the possible people groups which helped the author of this story created the nations and races in it. I began to explore. Also I went to church at small periods in this part of my life, (only like once in a very long time (try a few month or years.)

Soon when I became around 16-17 years of age I began to think of becoming a homosexual. At this point, I was a agnostic (even though I tried to call myself a Christian). And still I hated life even though I had friends.

But this is where God intervened. At 16 my friend took me to his church, there I tried listening to a sermon by the youth minister there the one only real thing I caught was it was his last day, the resaon I realized some of girls in the row back of me were calling me “gay” in the back row even though at this time I didn't even think about became a homosexual until after.) I didn't go back to that church (only for a year LOL!). When looking at the Lord of the Rings, I ran into what had to be my favorite nation, The Dwarves. When looking at them I saw 6 possible people group as inspiration. The Celts (tribes), Norse (the culture.), Russians (culture again), Germans (culture once again), Asians ( for the fact of Gunpowder.), and a strange group, the Jews (their wealth). But these people (the Jews) caught my attention. I realized all of society seemed to pick on this group of people. So I started to research into them. Then one day before Easter Sunday of 2007, I watched a documentary about the Exodus of the Israelites. This Jew presented a case possible proving the story.(even though went I did research on the possible locations of the story I disagree with him, I wish he paid attention to his Torah!) but the thing I noticed was not really by the Jew but by the evidence, was this God of theirs. And then a though came into my head....”What if this God is real?...” Remembering something my mom told me, was about this character called “Jesus” in the Bible. So on Easter Sunday I went back to that church, and there followed Christ even since. Soon after God gave me godly friends, took away my desire of porn, (even though I still battle with the things produced by it, but He is delivering me.) And my loneliness I still I'm fighting is fading, and my depression is gone. I Praise God for His mercy on a sinner like me! And this is my testimony.

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TRUTHsoularmor Reply to this	Oct 17, 2012 4:51 pm Excellent testimony my brother! God bless you bro, you know, that God will remain with you, even when no one else is around, he is listening even when you feel alone, God is really all you need bud, God is all I have, besides my family, and really, even when my family isn't there anymore, God will remain with me, and my trust in him is my faith buddy, and faith is what we need most when our lives get rough, we need him most to call upon in praise and we need to keep believing in God, and praising him in our savior's name Jesus, God loved the world so much, he gave his only son, Jesus, to pay for all our debts, sins, and perverse lifestyles bro, to die on that cross and was killed and he died for our sins to be forsaken, or in other words, forgot about and forgiven by God, and Jesus arose again after three days bearing the scars left from the nails beaten into his ankles and wrists to prove that he was our savior a'man! Praise God, even through rough times hallelujah, thank you Jesus!
Derby Reply to this	Oct 14, 2012 3:03 am Really touching...!!We thank God for being your saviour...:)
Jesuschica Reply to this	Jul 24, 2012 9:34 pm wow!! this is a really touching testimony ,to God be the glory !!
Maranika Reply to this	May 29, 2012 10:47 pm You almost made me cry! You are in my prayers :)
StormCease//Lacey Reply to this	May 24, 2012 1:32 pm I've finally read it and it is very good. Precise. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to share in what God has done for you. <3 ya and God Bless, Bro.
Kenzi.Ann Reply to this	May 21, 2012 12:35 pm it takes a lot of will power to postsomething like this. Iam so glad that you found Christ and vice versa. God has blessed you immensly. Good job, my friend. :)
StormsCease//Shae Reply to this	May 19, 2012 2:36 am This is absolutely amazing! Thank you for posting this. God is amazing! I can see what you were talking about, Him drawing you to Himself. I love it!
Poole Reply to this	May 18, 2012 7:22 pm Thanks for sharing
Poole Reply to this	May 18, 2012 7:21 pm Thats great, I've actually got a friend thats been battling with those issues most of his life and I believe this testimony could open his eyes and shed a new light on his dark path..
Reply to this	May 13, 2012 10:29 pm awesome testmoniy my friend
Shelbs(: Reply to this	May 13, 2012 7:59 pm Beyond amazing! I actually started crying. Honestly, you messaged me the link, and I was like iffy to read it, then I was like "if its long I'm not going to read it" and I started reading it, and I couldn't stop! So wonderful, and I give you props for posting this. I really do. Im glad you're on the right path now, and just continue down the right path, and God will fill your life with joy and many more amazing things. Good job, and God bless you! :)
ReformedBeliever Reply to this	May 13, 2012 7:30 pm Amazing testimony man :)
Lastonestanding Reply to this	May 13, 2012 6:28 pm Sorry if there are error in the text I'm proof reading it LOL!